Desabafo

Who are you?

You have to figure it out fast.

If you want to keep being the sweet, inocent, shy girl that you have been until now and accept the consequences of being that girl (that is, being a lonely person).

Or if you want to change and become this new different girl: daring, challenging...
But if I choose this second option, would I be pretending being someone else? Or just exploring my new facet, a new part of me? And if I choose this second option, would I be prepared to deal with its consequences?

Oh, god. I hate dilemmas. I hate not knowing what to do. I hate all this indecisiveness. And above all, I hate my life right now. But the point is that I like being the way I am. But being me right now, it's not making me any good.

I can't live like this anymore. Not after knowing how it is to be happy.

I just want the life that I had in Canada. I had friends, I used to go out, I felt loved. People accepted me the way I am: the sweet, inocent, shy girl. And above all, I was happy.