Será que eu devo fazer uma coisa que eu não gosto só para ser aceita na sociedade? Ou continuo sendo a mesma e vivendo nessa solidão?

Eu preciso fazer terapia de novo, mas as de convênio são horríveis...a que eu sei que é boa, que era minha terapeuta, não atende mais de convênio...e agora estou sem dinheiro pra pagar ela, como particular...

Eu precisava falar com ela...ela é a única que me entende...hehehe

=(

lembrei o que ia falar!

Eu consegui fazer tantas amizades no Canadá porque elas não sabiam como era minha vida aqui no Brasil...então, me aceitaram como "normal"...(tirando o fato que eu não bebo...mas depois levaram de boa...hehehe).

Acho que meu passado me condena...hauahauahaua

Vou tentar colocar aqui tudo que se passou pela minha cabeça ontem antes de dormir...não vou conseguir porque muitas das percepções que tive ontem já se esvaíram, mas vou tentar...talvez não faça nenhum sentido, mas vamos lá!

Por mais que eu tente, I will always feel like an outcast...

Por não concordar com várias coisas que as pessoas acham "normais" não consigo me encaixar...já tentei os dois lados da moeda, mas não deu certo...

Por coisas que aconteceram, ou deixaram de acontecer na minha adolescência, faz com que me sinta meio anormal agora...

Will I ever find someone who accept me the way I am?

Minha mãe fala que é liberal, mas ela não é...

O que eu faço que passo um ar de tanta seriedade? Será que minha expressão facial naturalmente é séria e eu não percebo?

Não sou uma pessoa muito engraçada, embora quisesse ser...

Talvez haja gente parecida comigo por aí, mas onde encontrá-los?

Sem carro é difícil ser alguém nessa vida...hauahauhaua


Tinha mais, mas me esqueci...talvez volte mais tarde pra escrever...hehehe

A bela e a fera

Hoje vi a versão antiga de "a bela e a fera". Eu gostei bastante...é meio sinistro no início, mas depois fica bonitinho...E eu adoro a parte que a fera/príncipe fala mais ou menos assim: "o amor pode nos transformar em uma fera, mas também pode nos transformar em homem". Não é que é verdade?

Por isso, ame na medida certa! Nada em exagero é bom! ;-)

Turbilhão de pensamentos...mas sem saber como expressar...quando conseguir organizar, escrevo aqui...

Como é que alguém vai gostar de mim, com a vida derrota que eu levo??

"Aquí sentada, quisiera llorar
Aquí al oscuro de esta soledad"

"You're incredibly unique, and love anything to do with art. This can be music, writing, painting, photography, or sculpting. You are often friends with stoners, but may not smoke up yourself. You're often quiet, and have really weird mannerisms, but have a very eccentric personality. You love any form of art, and have an eye for beauty in things considered plain. You take pride in your unique sense of style and fashion."

Não consigo mais parar de fazer esses testes! hauahauahaua

"You are the old-fashioned, dependable type, who is relied upon by friends to pick up the kids at school, or get last-minute supplies for an outing or party. People take you for granted, and few, if any, know you wish you could 'cut loose' more often. You long to soak your feet in a fountain, or walk in the rain, but you would never want to ruin your reputation, or get wet. Give it a try. People will be open to seeing you in another light, and you will be less uptight once you 'bust loose'."

Yeah...I Know I have to cut loose...

Nada a ver esse resultado...

"You are highly competitive and highly independent, although you also have an easygoing and spontaneous nature. In order to hide and mitigate just how badly you want to win, you have developed a thick veneer of friendliness -- in order to lull your opponents into a false sense of security, yes, but also in order to actually tame your own natural blood lust, and most of the time it works. At the end of the day, you ARE both good-hearted and competitive! However, beecause you are so mobile and ever-changing -- always developing yourself -- your friendships tend to be in flux, and the people who are your oldest friends may or may not accompany you all the way through life. Probably not."

Sim...eu gosto desses testes bestas...hehehe

"You are passionate, changeable, and imaginative. You may not make quick decisions (or make a final decision at all!), but you always try to consider all possibilities and points of view. Preferring to investigate and to “go with the flow”, you often allow your actions to be based on situations as they develop. You are a wanderer and free spirit with artistic tendencies. Like a meandering river, you never stay in one place for too long. You have a strong connection with the West. Water is represented by the color blue, and in Tarot readings is associated with the suit of Cups."

Outro teste

"You are a very wholesome person dedicated to your morals, values, and reputation. You have strong convictions and stand by them. More than likely, you have conservative political beliefs and ideologies. Building solid family and friend relationships is important to you. You like traditional roles of men and women and find it your natural tendency to fall into those roles. You enjoy the latest music, movies, and other recreational fun with your friends and family alike. Although conservative in nature, you also like to be up on the latest and greatest. You are a classic American, who is hard-working and a quality friend to have."

Except for the "classic American" it fits perfectly! hehehe

Resultado de um teste bobo que fiz...hehehe

"Your life depends on hiding your true super hero identity. You are shy and tend to keep to yourself. Events in your life don't always make sense but you seem to always get yourself out of difficult situations. You are very close with your family and friends, and always put their lives before your own. You prefer to keep your life easy and simple, but it always seems that someone has something much bigger planned for you. Be weary of your friends and make sure you weed out the bad ones."

"So distant you wander
Youve lost your way it seems
Pretending your happy
Nobody else believes
Youre ever going to come down
From your flying machine"